Whoever remains in me and I in him,
will bear much fruit. – Jn 15:5
doesn’t mean that I can coast along. Gardens need tending … Jesus, help me to know myself better. Show me what is choking your grace. Give me the strength to root it out … I want to bear fruit that will last.
attracted to me. (But I noticed) the monk who is nice and good to me proves to be just as nice
and good to everyone else. (So) I am obviously not more or less attractive than others. I tended to react by thinking: ‘Well, if he is just as friendly to everyone else as he is me, his friendliness cannot be real. His is friendly because he is supposed to be friendly. His love is only the result of obedience. It is not natural. Underneath his friendly surface he probably couldn’t care less about me as an individual.