to be resolved, according to their own vision, refusing
to enter into a dialogue of trust with those who are
oppressed and in distress. They will not listen to them.
In the past I’ve had musings about how well I am leading my life, the things that make me anxious. Through reading and meditation, I have found some thoughts which eased my anxiety(Matt 6:25). Friends have suggested I share them. This blog is not to voice my opinions, seek converts, or convince you of anything. I only seek to share the truth as it is given to me. I dedicate these words to St. Paul, the great evangelist, and pray that he may in some way inspire me, and you, as we go forward
I feel that some may be glancing at this blog from time to time to see what may be of interest. Others may believe that some of these words are mine only, a personal story to be read about me and my thoughts – which too often may appear “heavy or preachy.”
That is not why I write, nor why you should consider reading.
I really don’t believe anything I write is “interesting”. If that is what you seek, there are more fun-filled sites to entertain you. My words are personal sometimes, true, but only insofar as they pertain to answers I have perceived to calm my own anxieties, my worries, my stresses in this life, and I believe my experiences may help calm your fears also. Yes, that is sometimes heavy stuff. “Do Not Be Anxious” IS the title of this blog.
And there are some words I write (or re-present from others) that are not meant for me. I get no great insights from them, yet I believe them important. I feel compelled to write them even as I am sometimes compelled to sneeze. I can’t stop it, and I don’t know why. Perhaps there are some small “germs” in the words that you are meant to catch out of the air.
I spend time most mornings in meditation. Sometimes ten minutes, sometimes an hour. Usually I read some words of The Liturgy of the Hours, Scripture or saintly authors, and my mind ponders. Sometimes I write. It is in that spirit, words to be meditated upon, as I do, that I write this blog.
If you read these words in that serious spirit, asking of God: “Lord, what would you have me do?” and still come away with nothing of value from these words --- then laugh!! At least in that way they will make you feel better. And the laughter will relieve, even if for only a moment, your anxieties. And then the time I spent writing this will have been worth it.
Never let evil talk pass your lips; say only the good things men need to hear, things that will really help them. Do nothing that will sadden the Holy Spirit with whom you were sealed against the day of redemption. Get rid of all bitterness, all passion and anger, harsh words, slander, and malice of every kind. In place of these, be kind to one another, compassionate, and mutually forgiving, just as God has forgiven you in Christ. (Eph 4: 29-32)
I haven't read these books, but I was struck by your final question, "Who can live this way?" And in my mind I asked, "How can anyone live any other way?"
ReplyDeleteWhen people are able and talented and successful, that is a very good thing, but sometimes they begin to be very self satisfied, and forget about the times they we not able (dis-abled?) and needed help (say, when they were toddlers, or even struggling students) and by help from God and others, they made it through. And because they are talented and able, they find ways to acquire what they want. And they begin to think it is themselves that made things go right, and they ignore the help of God's Providence and even the generosity they received from others. There were many "yes's" for them, many doors flung open to allow them inside. But the doors remain shut and barred for those without talents and abilities.
God gives us gifts and talents not so much to fill ourselves with good things and only associate with others who have acquired good things too, but so that we would be able to associate and dispense those good things to those without the talents to acquire them for themselves. We're to be stewards of our gifts and talents.
I am not talking about having to give away our worldly goods to those who are without, as a sort of socialism. I am talking about understanding how, if we can walk, we help someone who cannot walk. Maybe we want to run, to dance, to play sports, and if we instead help the person who cannot walk, we have to slow down and not run, or dance, or play sports. So we choose. Do we help someone because we have an ability they do not? Or do we abandon them and do as we wish with our own talents and abilities, enjoying them, but not sharing them?
It really is up to us. But every day is a test. And in the end, Our Lord will say, 'come and join me, because when I was hungry you gave me to eat, when I was thirsty, naked, or sick, or in a prison...' and we'll say, 'when did we see you hungry, thirsty, naked, sick or in a prison (or with Down's syndrome, or without legs, or autistic...)?
I am not saying all this to lecture you, but to help you to see how people like Vanier see themselves and others and the work of life. The world needs able and talented people to build and create good places to live and work. You are lucky to have had a role in God's plan for that. But now perhaps God has another work for you. You seem to be working hard at trying to change your heart, but it is God who changes hearts. I am glad you have taken this project on, because it seems God is using your talents and abilities in a very good way, leading you to the Kingdom of Heaven where He resides.
God bless you. Fran
Thank you, Fran, for your insights and wisdom. And no, I would never view your comments and assume I am being lectured to. You're just someone God puts in my path to be an instrument of His peace --- not a roadblock.
ReplyDeleteYes, I believe I am being changed, through things I read, through prayers answered (sometimes in ways I don't yet understand), through people who God puts in my life, and through His mysterious graces. I've made no boasting here, but I've documented some of the wonderful things He has done for me, and through me. It's His work, and I am open to the paths on which He leads me.
Vanier's lifework IS different than mine, but the attitudes he describes toward the poor, "different," and perhaps even toward those who just disagree with us, is not a typical attitude in our culture, or in the world. When I reviewed Signs I mentioned that I found myself disputing some things Jean said, putting forth a "you've got to live in this imperfect world as best you can" attitude. But Jean seemed to say: "no, you've got to live as Jesus lived, as best you can." He seemed to say you don't start with the world as it is, and accommodate from there. He said you start as Jesus is, and accommodate from there. His focus on the marginalized was an attempt to see and act as Jesus did.
I learn about who Jesus was and is from my readings and my prayer life. Jean seems to say you can learn more as you live your life --- if you focus on those Jesus focused on. As I noted when I reviewed Signs, I found myself discussing/arguing things with Vanier's worldview, but when I took those same arguments to prayer, I felt as if I were arguing with Jesus. And I didn't feel comfortable in my thinking. Vanier's books, if nothing else, very much make me think ---- and make me think about how very much I don't know.
(Oh, and I don't think it a coincidence that God put these books in my hands, even as I was asked to join the board of an organization caring for the very same people which Vanier cared for.)
God bless you, Fran, and thank you for taking the time to consider, reflect, and provide me insights.